Way back when I was first living alone, and still adjusting to being in a house by myself. The strange noises, sometimes the absence of noise, the newness of it all could sometimes mean it would take a while to get to sleep.
A few weeks in and I was starting to love the peace, enjoy my own company and adjust to the novelty of it all. I started to fall asleep quickly. But then one night I had a very rude awakening.
I woke when I felt an arm fall over my face and rest round my neck. The panic I felt was palpable, dry mouth, pounding heart, thoughts whizzing imagining the most awful scenarios. As a young woman living alone, I locked the door with two locks and put the chain on, I checked this as part of my pre bedroom routine. I was sure that this night, like every other, I had secured my door. My body was in the freeze mode of fight/flight/freeze. I couldn’t move, wondering when the person the arm belonged to would speak or take action.
As is normal in such situations, I couldn’t measure how much time had passed, it could have been seconds or minutes, it felt like a lifetime. Then, I felt another strange sensation, light at first and then slightly painful. It was pins and needles in the arm that was round me. I realised I must have slept on my arm, turned in my sleep with an arm so dead it didn’t feel like my own and in a split second I was picturing the horrible things that were about to happen to me.
Needless to say I felt a tad foolish, although I was laughing at myself with relief, it took quite sometime to get back to sleep that night. My heart kept pounding, albeit slower, I had to drink a lot of water to get rid of the dry feeling, and, even when I knew the mysterious arm was my own, I checked the locks on my door more times that I care to remember before going back to bed.
The danger was a figment of my imagination but the reactions in my body were real. It got me to thinking a lot about the power of thought. It’s the power of thought and the subconscious mind which we work with using hypnotherapy, NLP and coaching. My subconscious thoughts took me to a bad place that night, now I can use it to my advantage.
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